A friend recently sent me an inciteful (and astrological) piece about this current Mercury Retrograde (in Taurus) April 18 thru May 11. This inspired a letter to my family (mostly women) about house keeping... sort of!? Anyway, it all turned into a universal evolutionary energy thing I thought might go to 'post'. (See previous two posts about Mercury Retrograde and Goat Amnesty!) My astrologically brilliant friend, Nancy at CiennaMoon agreed I might share her email here... so more would have benefit of her words... and also as a basis (perhaps) for explaining how I got where I was yesterday as I posted (or what was driving my 'rant' as Skip and I have agreed to call these insightful 'blasts!'... so here it is, in full... her regular offerings always seem to be right on the money! Thanks Nancy... guess I'm off to walk the labyrinth and balance this all out! and then to seek support for the children in town thru donations to the WCTV live auction & entertainment weekend at the end of May. Hope your fair is great! Namaste' & blessings. Deb
----- Original Message -----
From: CIENNAMOON1@aol.com
Sent: Friday, April 23, 2010 8:36 AM
Subject: (no subject)
Tomorrow Tom and I will be reading at the psychic fair in Wareham. The location is the Elks hall on Cranberry highway. The hours are 10-5. The readings are $20 for 15 minutes, half goes to charity. Hope to see you there! For my part, I plan to hand this sheet out on Mercury retrograde....but you get it first!!! Nancy
Reconsidering inner beauty (inherent worth) vs. glamour or charm (external validation)….ideas around taste, culture, the material form our desires take on. As we look at the current retrograde some awareness comes to mind around what we seek to own and what comes to own us.
Mercury Retrograde in Taurus: April 18, 2010 through May 11, 2010
Challenge of 4-18-10 through 4-25-10
Review limitations, obligations, and responsibilities based on past values. What once represented the social rules is now under question. Charming others is looked at as a way to get what you want without revealing who you really are. Old vulnerabilities can be released so more modern self image can be actualized. A time to rethink, reevaluate, reflect, reconfirm, resolve, repair, research, renew, restart, resurrect, and release.
Pay attention to any “answers or solutions” that come forward around April 28/29 when our thoughts and identity synch up. We may feel more confident as we embrace new ideas and release old points of view. We are asked to update old self image by giving voice to our current values, talents, and sense of self-worth. You are asked to be more yourself today…. true self reflected in the world of form and substance !
Challenge of 4-26-10 through 5-11-10
Review what roles and relationships hold value in your life today. See your life by what you hold dear. If you are stuck in a rut it’s time to release what once represented security and allow new choices to come through. If the dullness of life is weighing you down. question what needs to be varied or changed.
“The ability to simplify means to eliminate the unnecessary so that the necessary may speak”. Hans Hofmann
May 3, 2010: This is the key date for this Mercury retrograde!
Every challenge felt now offers opportunities to see deeper meaning; seek your just desserts. (nb from Deb... this may not be retribution or guilt, but perhaps the chance to see the value of the lesson & experience? i.e. the gift, the silver lining... if we 'paid dearly' for an experience, perhaps 'just desserts' is our 'reward' not our punishment?)
Clarity may come through. You may gain insight or deeper understanding around your own self-worth and what motivations are at play in your relationships. Today is a chance to gain more intimacy in relationship and increase self awareness. Ask yourself what do you own and what do you just borrow from others? Your inner beauty is reflected in the things you appreciate, the relationships you attract, the work you do, and the world you live in. This could be the breakthrough moment that takes you from material to spiritual connection and back again.
Themes and Challenges by sign:
Aries…let the seed take route
Taurus…determine what material you are currently rooted in, stuck or firmly in place?
Gemini…question the investment of your resources or talents in the environment around you
Cancer…what provides a supportive foundation, offers sustenance
Leo… what talents are you recognized for, how are you valued
Virgo…how do you reorganize your assets into a workable program, manage your skills
Libra…be honest in what you choose to reflect, real relationships aren’t always comfortable
Scorpio…secrets reveal hidden desires , passions ignite or manipulations control
Sagittarius…people from the past may help inspire or encourage talents once again
Capricorn… past values or social connections, do they need to be restructured?
Aquarius…Reinventing the past or moving beyond old values…liberation and renewed worth
Pisces…Progress comes one step at a time, work through the situation to completion.
Presented by Nancy Foley ciennamoon1@aol.com
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
National Goat Amnesty Day, May 3, 2010, part 2
A friend emailed me an insightful, astrological piece of info about this Mercury Retrograde. These notes (sent originally to my sisters and daughters, reflect my own journey... and since we are all one, afterall... some part of this may touch you! Namaste' GURU's!
I find myself once again, feeling resentful about being 'over-commited' (and seeing that is my take on it, cause it's more work than I thought! :)... working on several deadlines (though I may be seeing them more rigidly than others... it's the project rule... and we know about rules! danger, warning, don't break 'em or someone will be mad! ) seeking cooperation from others who already have full plates! and (like me?) have put there hands up to limit anything else coming at them... so of course, it all is! How did I get here again?
Heck! (sp?) I know about self esteem... have been working on this for years... used to think we all had just a little f...g too much of that if you'd asked me... long ago I thought it was perhaps Mom's 'just stand up a little taller, pretend you know what you're doing and get on with it'... Think I got the 'just pretend' part of that lesson... and inside never really 'felt' it... if we were enough, how come we were never enough?
Well, I've recently had the 'thank god, they are more than just girls conversation' with several folks! One (a middle daughter, a friend, colleague, who rides her Harley with glee, single parents three teenagers and cheerfully professes she can do it all!) looked at me like I had 3 heads... she did not have my point of reference to being 'only/just girls, too bad, no boys'... I found myself back-peddling to explain myself and in the process reviewing it all (AGAIN!!!)...
Well, I am intending to find, actualize & release my modern self image, (ref. to Nancy's post) if it is to be 'cranky crone' so be it. If that's who I am in any given moment, then I will own it, without apology or sublimation or self criticism... and take a breath and invite myself to 'just' be a girl for minute... (btw, that's different from being just-a-girl!... just so there's no confusion, there!) maybe no need to be super woman (can't fit into that suit anymore) super (daughter... can let that one go, I guess, hhhmm? ) super Mom... (can I still be that?) super sister... (what's a sister to do?) super wife (who would want to be husband to cranky crone?) super, super, super??? Aaarggh... I just want to be me, if I could only really figure out who that was.
Day by day, this girl is cleaning house, weeding out the clutter, the corners, the drawer full of empty paper bags. Fresh paint, new windows, re-purposing the way we use the rooms... Nancy's note about this retrograde helped a bit to see where I have been stuck in the old roles, applying the old rules, seeing thru old windows, with old points of view.
Someone recently wrote... it is our families that are uniquely designed to trigger our 's$*!?^#t' 'stuff'... they know where all our buttons are. Skip says if you don't let anyone know where your goat is tied, they can't 'get it'... and families know where all the goats are... You all know that for a long time, I thought, anytime someone gets my goat, it's because I needed to get rid of that f....g goat! Not everyone wants to do that, I get it... These days, it's not so much, for me, about getting rid of the goat anymore, but getting over the 'goat'. Recognizing where I tied it... so I didn't have to look at it... And letting myself off the hook for whatever made me tie that poor old goat up in the first place! That all 'get's my goat!' Who knows, maybe I get your goat?
You know, I wouldn't have wished my stuff on you... heck, I wouldn't have wished your stuff on you... what if we just declare Goat Amnesty day! I say, we take those goats & set them free! I'm wanting to let them off the hook! so to speak! (Yikes, I'm havin' a visual... aahh... Farmer girl says, keep them safe, don't let them get into the green grass, they'll all get bloat! what will be do if we lose all our goats?... hhhm... guess I needed to see that one! hhhmmm... AAAaarggghhhh!!! Who would I be without all those old goats?) Breathe... AAaaahhh... well, I feel better.
Happy Spring... Happy Mercury retrograde... love you all... hope you enjoy today's rant!
I find myself once again, feeling resentful about being 'over-commited' (and seeing that is my take on it, cause it's more work than I thought! :)... working on several deadlines (though I may be seeing them more rigidly than others... it's the project rule... and we know about rules! danger, warning, don't break 'em or someone will be mad! ) seeking cooperation from others who already have full plates! and (like me?) have put there hands up to limit anything else coming at them... so of course, it all is! How did I get here again?
Heck! (sp?) I know about self esteem... have been working on this for years... used to think we all had just a little f...g too much of that if you'd asked me... long ago I thought it was perhaps Mom's 'just stand up a little taller, pretend you know what you're doing and get on with it'... Think I got the 'just pretend' part of that lesson... and inside never really 'felt' it... if we were enough, how come we were never enough?
Well, I've recently had the 'thank god, they are more than just girls conversation' with several folks! One (a middle daughter, a friend, colleague, who rides her Harley with glee, single parents three teenagers and cheerfully professes she can do it all!) looked at me like I had 3 heads... she did not have my point of reference to being 'only/just girls, too bad, no boys'... I found myself back-peddling to explain myself and in the process reviewing it all (AGAIN!!!)...
Well, I am intending to find, actualize & release my modern self image, (ref. to Nancy's post) if it is to be 'cranky crone' so be it. If that's who I am in any given moment, then I will own it, without apology or sublimation or self criticism... and take a breath and invite myself to 'just' be a girl for minute... (btw, that's different from being just-a-girl!... just so there's no confusion, there!) maybe no need to be super woman (can't fit into that suit anymore) super (daughter... can let that one go, I guess, hhhmm? ) super Mom... (can I still be that?) super sister... (what's a sister to do?) super wife (who would want to be husband to cranky crone?) super, super, super??? Aaarggh... I just want to be me, if I could only really figure out who that was.
Day by day, this girl is cleaning house, weeding out the clutter, the corners, the drawer full of empty paper bags. Fresh paint, new windows, re-purposing the way we use the rooms... Nancy's note about this retrograde helped a bit to see where I have been stuck in the old roles, applying the old rules, seeing thru old windows, with old points of view.
Someone recently wrote... it is our families that are uniquely designed to trigger our 's$*!?^#t' 'stuff'... they know where all our buttons are. Skip says if you don't let anyone know where your goat is tied, they can't 'get it'... and families know where all the goats are... You all know that for a long time, I thought, anytime someone gets my goat, it's because I needed to get rid of that f....g goat! Not everyone wants to do that, I get it... These days, it's not so much, for me, about getting rid of the goat anymore, but getting over the 'goat'. Recognizing where I tied it... so I didn't have to look at it... And letting myself off the hook for whatever made me tie that poor old goat up in the first place! That all 'get's my goat!' Who knows, maybe I get your goat?
You know, I wouldn't have wished my stuff on you... heck, I wouldn't have wished your stuff on you... what if we just declare Goat Amnesty day! I say, we take those goats & set them free! I'm wanting to let them off the hook! so to speak! (Yikes, I'm havin' a visual... aahh... Farmer girl says, keep them safe, don't let them get into the green grass, they'll all get bloat! what will be do if we lose all our goats?... hhhm... guess I needed to see that one! hhhmmm... AAAaarggghhhh!!! Who would I be without all those old goats?) Breathe... AAaaahhh... well, I feel better.
Happy Spring... Happy Mercury retrograde... love you all... hope you enjoy today's rant!
Mercury Retrograde and Goat Amnesty Day! May 3, 2010 1st post
A friend sent me an insightful and astrological piece of information about this Mercury Retrograde! I was inspired to write about it... to my family... hhhm... and then 'heard' it could be a new post to this blog about natural evolution! I think, actually, I feel... honoring National Goat Amnesty Day on May 3, might be an opportunity to effect our evolution right down to the cellular level! I'll be clearing, tapping, intending transformation, walking the labyrinth, inviting Shamballa (unconditional love without fear) energy in to assist me... and any of you who would like to take this journey also... just set your intention to be part of it! and let it go! Whatever you are ready to transform will show itself and assist your natural evolution! Be well... er! Smile at yourself from your heart... and breathe that love right out into your energy selves, allowing it to assist the shifting. Feel your heart's appreciation for all that you are! Feel your hearts' appreciation for All That Is!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Natural Evolutions... another perspective...
Well, 30 days ago was my birthday. I was 61. Yup... 3/3/2010. Numerologically I had a heyday! 3-3-2010 is 3-3-3 is 9... (for me often a significant indicator of something that effects me from the core. For some it's a spiritual number... friends know I think it's all spiritual (and I know they smile and think... uh ah! here she goes again!)... Now, 61 is another story... A great teacher of mine channelled a philosophy of living she called four-forces. Within that, there were developmental stages (for the human, that is..., and not to diverge, but if it was applied to my dogs, 1 year is 7... then for them, each year would be close to a developmental stage...) that shifted every 6 years... so in 2009, I was 60 on 3-3-2009... 3-3-11... an 8 year for me (someone look at what 8 is?) and within the philosophy of Four Forces I would have shifted from Centirfugal (how I effect what is not 'me' or not within 'me' or what is outside of 'me' as compared to how does any of that effect me?) into Gravity... a place of observation, with the potential of rest, being ok with myself and neutrality anchored in the physical body (as compared to the emotional, mental or spriitual bodies) enhancing my sense of security with heart energy, and resulting in a greater sense of harmony (relative to my place in the universe!) That said, please note: I said 'the potential of being..." And I embraced it all! I said: yahoo, I AM CRONE! BRING IT ON! Not sure I anticipated the 'purple hat' award... but that's another conversation.
Another teacher... (don't you love teachers, the good one's always tell you what you need to hear, even when it's the last thing you really want to know... they just sort of open the door for us to see that which we feared was really there... or dreaded... or worried about... and so often, once I've wrapped my little human brain around it, and gotten over myself, and allowed my heart to see it too, I find the light in whatever truth I am being offered and if I'm lucky, can take a breath or two before the next one!... yikes, sometimes it's like swimming laps!)
Anyway... another of my great teachers wrote... When you set an intention: everything that needs to be transformed for you to be the person you wish to be, for you to be ready to do what you say you intend; for you to embrace the journey and step into that which you are focused on... everything that needs to shift... will begin to show itself... so you can be that! (my words here: anything that is not in a frequency aligned with or compatible to who you are becoming will begin to vibrate so that it also can be transformed/evolved to serve you on your journey, to assist you to evolve, to transform, to release (what no longer serves you) and carry you (hhhmm... sometimes kicking and screaming) to that place you said you wanted to be! Ok... so 2009-2010 has been like swimming laps in the ocean! I was going to say like swimming laps in the last big coastal storm... but as the universe, I find, often responds to what I fear or resist by giving me another chance to get over it or thru it, so I will recognize that I can survive THAT TOO! I'll temper my response a bit! (Cause I'm in charge you see, at least of me, if not in control of the universe!) and because it was only while I was in it, that it seemed so big... today, a month after I finished being 60... it seems not as trying as I had thought... and, I'm on the other side of that... can see how I've grown, changed, evolved, transformed...
Oh... I could look at the next 5 years (the rest of this 6-year developmental stage and all it's challenges) and dread the coming lessons... but this is a place of observation, an opportunity to be ok with me just being me, to receive (you know, the paycheck at the end of the week)... I get I still need to show up... but just for now, this weekend, after all the turmoil of the passed few months... rain, storms, taxes, oil bills, politics, healthcare, etc... I'm gonna take a break... from being on guard about everything, from worrying about it all, from even thinking that it is up to me to figure out how to fix it all (in the best oldest sister of sisters way!) Anyway, Skip always says 'worrying: it's like praying for what you don't want!' Love that guy! I can always tell by the whites of his eyes when I'm getting a little too far from the center of the path... (you know, like the bull in the arena...) Well...
Where was I? ... a little off the path, I suppose... check out this link... see... you don't have to get old to be bold... http://www.wheelunite.com/ found it on Earthday site from facebook... wonder where my skates are? maybe I could just start with the hula hoop, it must be around here somewhere!
Happy spring, happy earthday coming up 4/22/10... be well, be cool, be crone! Enjoy!
Anyway... another of my great teachers wrote... When you set an intention: everything that needs to be transformed for you to be the person you wish to be, for you to be ready to do what you say you intend; for you to embrace the journey and step into that which you are focused on... everything that needs to shift... will begin to show itself... so you can be that! (my words here: anything that is not in a frequency aligned with or compatible to who you are becoming will begin to vibrate so that it also can be transformed/evolved to serve you on your journey, to assist you to evolve, to transform, to release (what no longer serves you) and carry you (hhhmm... sometimes kicking and screaming) to that place you said you wanted to be! Ok... so 2009-2010 has been like swimming laps in the ocean! I was going to say like swimming laps in the last big coastal storm... but as the universe, I find, often responds to what I fear or resist by giving me another chance to get over it or thru it, so I will recognize that I can survive THAT TOO! I'll temper my response a bit! (Cause I'm in charge you see, at least of me, if not in control of the universe!) and because it was only while I was in it, that it seemed so big... today, a month after I finished being 60... it seems not as trying as I had thought... and, I'm on the other side of that... can see how I've grown, changed, evolved, transformed...
Oh... I could look at the next 5 years (the rest of this 6-year developmental stage and all it's challenges) and dread the coming lessons... but this is a place of observation, an opportunity to be ok with me just being me, to receive (you know, the paycheck at the end of the week)... I get I still need to show up... but just for now, this weekend, after all the turmoil of the passed few months... rain, storms, taxes, oil bills, politics, healthcare, etc... I'm gonna take a break... from being on guard about everything, from worrying about it all, from even thinking that it is up to me to figure out how to fix it all (in the best oldest sister of sisters way!) Anyway, Skip always says 'worrying: it's like praying for what you don't want!' Love that guy! I can always tell by the whites of his eyes when I'm getting a little too far from the center of the path... (you know, like the bull in the arena...) Well...
Where was I? ... a little off the path, I suppose... check out this link... see... you don't have to get old to be bold... http://www.wheelunite.com/ found it on Earthday site from facebook... wonder where my skates are? maybe I could just start with the hula hoop, it must be around here somewhere!
Happy spring, happy earthday coming up 4/22/10... be well, be cool, be crone! Enjoy!
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Don't worry... be happy?!
Yessirree... Abraham has said it all! Get Happy! Abraham simple, true and it works!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Non-profit Earth Lodge airs AT THE HUB
Heya all... happy to say... we have aired our first show... At The Hub will be viewable in Wareham area via Comcast, Channel 9 at 7:30 PM Sunday evenings; Also on educational TV Comcast 97 Tuesdays 11 AM; Verizon 28 Thursdays 6 PM... Hope to see you At The Hub... http://www.atthehub.org/; check out our guest links and email us with your needs or donations! Many thanks to WCTV, Wareham's community access tv. Namaste' Deb
Friday, January 29, 2010
Crystals!
someone just asked me about bringing our round honey calcite up for class...
sure enough, I say, along with anyone else who wants to come...
feel free to bring your stones to the meditation if you like...
hugs/D
sure enough, I say, along with anyone else who wants to come...
feel free to bring your stones to the meditation if you like...
hugs/D
Thursday, January 28, 2010
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Note: If you cannot be with us to experience this meditation first hand, please feel free to join us energetically. From 7-9 pm find yourself a quiet space, set intention to connect with the Mahatma Energy and allow the pure love of Source to flow thru you to the Earth and back to Source. It may help to envision this light energy flowing in the shape of an infinity sign from source to the earth and back, thru you. When you feel complete with the meditation, give thanks and be at peace.
Shamballa On! I AM THAT I AM... The Mahatma In Love...
Namaste' Deb
Your voluntary donation supports the DoveStar scholarship fund.
Note: If you cannot be with us to experience this meditation first hand, please feel free to join us energetically. From 7-9 pm find yourself a quiet space, set intention to connect with the Mahatma Energy and allow the pure love of Source to flow thru you to the Earth and back to Source. It may help to envision this light energy flowing in the shape of an infinity sign from source to the earth and back, thru you. When you feel complete with the meditation, give thanks and be at peace.
Shamballa On! I AM THAT I AM... The Mahatma In Love...
Namaste' Deb
Peace
Wow... I just heard someone on a TV program say: if you stop thinking in terms of what you like or don't like in this world and view it all more from the reality of what is... then you'd find a lot more peace in your life!
Cool! Imagine that! Universal truths on tv... hhhmm....
Cool! Imagine that! Universal truths on tv... hhhmm....
After the January Thaw... it's all in your perception...
Heya! been a while... Seems my focus has been more on websites, a cable tv show and continued interior rehab on this old house! than on 'natural evolutions..." but, maybe (probably?) its really all part of the same thing... who am I, where am I, and what am I doing here.... was my mantra for more than 20 years... and at the end of the 80's, I came also to the end of a cycle of young wife, young mother & woman of the 80's who 'can-have-it-all'. Thank god for evolution, in the transformative sense ..(you know we're not necessarily talking about growing another pair of hands or a second head.... although,, back then, that might have helped... come to think of it... Cloning would have probably been a great option) .... anyway... believe it or not... it's 20 years later (how does that happen?) ... and the end of yet another cycle... This time, however, my perception is 180 degrees different! 1989/90 was about endings... what I had lost, grandparents, my home, my babies had grown up, didn't want or need a full-time Mummy and were no longer at home, my job... all that had defined me drained away... even my parents moved out of the home I had grown up in! It seemed to me they fled to Florida... I felt an orphan, tho' never really able to express that... I was lost... even I had trouble finding me...
Thank goodness, I say, now! Thank goodness they had the sense and courage to do what they wanted to do... my parents, my kids... thank god we went thru it all! My dad used to say... anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger... and wow did I used to hate that! Now sometimes, I sound sort of like him! Now I get!
As we moved thru the end of the last century and I turned the page on the 1999 December calendar (and my 50th birthday) "shift" hit the fan again! Another 10 years with dramatic changes: My parents have passed and more pets are gone, our daughters moved out of state... and that topped the 1st day of school and the High School graduations more than I was prepared for! Seeking solace, community, sisterhood, some kind of understanding about all of it... Coming out of the 70-80's with Women Lib, 12-step and ACOA programs, self-help books, John Bradshaw, and so many others... I now found yoga, tai chi, Carolyn Myss, Mutant Message, Mother Wit. Adrenal overload, stress, poor nutitional choices had left physically and emotionally deplete... I juiced! Took Reiki, investigated shamanism and passed lives.... looking everywhere for more..... or less! Oops... another mirror, another metaphore... maybe less was more! I used to take that literally... and thought...what about my stuff... what about, what about, what about...
Here's the deal.... evolution (at least so far) doesn't seem to be an 'overnight' thing... it is a process...
(Like growing up... it only happens when you get older... well, maybe that's another topic... )
Is it the perspective we get from being able to look back at all this experience, the awarenss that comes from all the lessons, and our willingness to learn and grow from them, that actually, finally takes hold of us... and can we learn to have compassion for ourselves in light of all the challenges... so we may begin to find we can extend that compassion to others?
Because, sometimes, we can go years, worrying about the future, and agonizing over the past... without ever really recognizing that all we have is now... that if, right now, we are ok... that is a big deal. And if we are ok right now... then what 'was', brought us here... and perhaps we can begin to have compassion and understanding for that.... it's the cycle...
In 1994 I was introduced to Labyrinths. They were a metaphore for the spiritual journey, the path of the seeker, reflecting the twists and turns of our earth walk... and, to me... the way our lives moved in cycles, leading us closer to what we desired and then away from it... or so it seemed. Perspective, once again... in the labyrinth, as long as I stayed on the path... even tho' I appeared to be moving away from the goal... I eventually came to the center. Interesting... same deal on the way out... as long as you stayed on the path... as long as you kept moving... you always get where you intend to go, inspite of the perceived twists and turns.
Ahh... my mind was evolving... my comprehension expanding... my awareness shifting... everything seemed an opportunity for growth and learning... (delete the 4-letter words) I was back in school... Oh! I was in Earth School! This was no longer just me on a search for more meaning in my life... was it a spiritual quest...was I an evolving human... or a spiritual being having a human experience???
I suppose... it's all in your perspective...
Well, my labyrinth website: http://www.asilvercord.com/ is online. The non-profit has created a new public access cable show which airs Sunday nite, 7:30 pm, January 31. 2010, channel 9, WCTV, Wareham Comcast Cable. If you'd like to help out, visit http://www.atthehub.org/ and check out the Community Resource pages.
Funny thing... 20 years ago... I was juggling schedules, writing & editing copy, designing layouts, learning a new computer and networking. Same thing this week! Web pages, video taping and editing, Production meetings. Wow! can't wait for tomorrow! It's that perspective thing again... Only this time... I get to pick!
Peace...
Deb
Thank goodness, I say, now! Thank goodness they had the sense and courage to do what they wanted to do... my parents, my kids... thank god we went thru it all! My dad used to say... anything that doesn't kill you makes you stronger... and wow did I used to hate that! Now sometimes, I sound sort of like him! Now I get!
As we moved thru the end of the last century and I turned the page on the 1999 December calendar (and my 50th birthday) "shift" hit the fan again! Another 10 years with dramatic changes: My parents have passed and more pets are gone, our daughters moved out of state... and that topped the 1st day of school and the High School graduations more than I was prepared for! Seeking solace, community, sisterhood, some kind of understanding about all of it... Coming out of the 70-80's with Women Lib, 12-step and ACOA programs, self-help books, John Bradshaw, and so many others... I now found yoga, tai chi, Carolyn Myss, Mutant Message, Mother Wit. Adrenal overload, stress, poor nutitional choices had left physically and emotionally deplete... I juiced! Took Reiki, investigated shamanism and passed lives.... looking everywhere for more..... or less! Oops... another mirror, another metaphore... maybe less was more! I used to take that literally... and thought...what about my stuff... what about, what about, what about...
Here's the deal.... evolution (at least so far) doesn't seem to be an 'overnight' thing... it is a process...
(Like growing up... it only happens when you get older... well, maybe that's another topic... )
Is it the perspective we get from being able to look back at all this experience, the awarenss that comes from all the lessons, and our willingness to learn and grow from them, that actually, finally takes hold of us... and can we learn to have compassion for ourselves in light of all the challenges... so we may begin to find we can extend that compassion to others?
Because, sometimes, we can go years, worrying about the future, and agonizing over the past... without ever really recognizing that all we have is now... that if, right now, we are ok... that is a big deal. And if we are ok right now... then what 'was', brought us here... and perhaps we can begin to have compassion and understanding for that.... it's the cycle...
In 1994 I was introduced to Labyrinths. They were a metaphore for the spiritual journey, the path of the seeker, reflecting the twists and turns of our earth walk... and, to me... the way our lives moved in cycles, leading us closer to what we desired and then away from it... or so it seemed. Perspective, once again... in the labyrinth, as long as I stayed on the path... even tho' I appeared to be moving away from the goal... I eventually came to the center. Interesting... same deal on the way out... as long as you stayed on the path... as long as you kept moving... you always get where you intend to go, inspite of the perceived twists and turns.
Ahh... my mind was evolving... my comprehension expanding... my awareness shifting... everything seemed an opportunity for growth and learning... (delete the 4-letter words) I was back in school... Oh! I was in Earth School! This was no longer just me on a search for more meaning in my life... was it a spiritual quest...was I an evolving human... or a spiritual being having a human experience???
I suppose... it's all in your perspective...
Well, my labyrinth website: http://www.asilvercord.com/ is online. The non-profit has created a new public access cable show which airs Sunday nite, 7:30 pm, January 31. 2010, channel 9, WCTV, Wareham Comcast Cable. If you'd like to help out, visit http://www.atthehub.org/ and check out the Community Resource pages.
Funny thing... 20 years ago... I was juggling schedules, writing & editing copy, designing layouts, learning a new computer and networking. Same thing this week! Web pages, video taping and editing, Production meetings. Wow! can't wait for tomorrow! It's that perspective thing again... Only this time... I get to pick!
Peace...
Deb
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